For the past four months, our growing family has just been a misty vision in our heads- we know I'm pregnant, I definitely feel pregnant, but there's been nothing we can really look at and see with our eyes that reminds us day-to-day that we are bringing a new human into this world.
Over the past week, this has definitely changed. I have a real belly. And a person is living inside. Woah.
(An awfully grainy picture, I know, but I took it of myself with an iPhone.)
This person may just be a half-pound potato, but his or her life is certainly making it known on my body. While the queesiness of the first trimester is nearly gone, it's been replaced by a three hour headache in the morning, relentless thirst and an hunger for kalamata olives or fried pickles, and just a wee bit of irritability. If you've placed an order in the past month and there's been the wrong needle size, or one skein when there should have been three, hey THAT'S ME! I can't blame it on Mary or Heather, but I'll blame it on the little potato. I certainly have Baby Brain much more than I did with my pregnancy five years ago (there's only six days difference between the timing of this baby and James- odd, eh?). In fact, I feel like every part of this pregnancy is amplified. My connection with the wee one, my emotions, my body's reaction. And certainly I'm showing much sooner than I remember showing with James.
I'm preparing a bit already too. I'm working from home this morning, and my new nursing chair was just delivered! Joe suggested that I get a chair for our bedroom to make it easier for me to nurse this time. I wasn't comfortable nursing James in bed (though the c-section could have affected that) so this time we have a chair so that one of us can be with the baby while the other one is sleeping in bed. In our last home, we didn't have room for anything but a bed, dresser and small hard chair in our room, but this formerly empty corner is now going to be a comfy space for us to relax. Now if I could only find a few hours to take a nap in that chair... that would be a treat!